Changes Me

Last night I decided to dye my own hair..
I choose light cooper blonde...
After office I rush in to the store to buy hair color...
I never done dying my own hair...
But after he left I decided to do things on my own..
Well i feel good about myself after I found out the results...
Its quite good.. for a beginner...

Ai Loses It

Welcome Back..

Everything was flashing back again...
I felt the hatred slowly over flowing to me...
I felt strong again...
I love this feeling that I was never gonna hurt by anyone...
I felt like I can do what ever I wanted...
I was never been good as like this before...
This is ME..  the real one...
The ME who needs no-one...
The ME who never gets scared of anything...
But I believe in God...

It Ends Tonight

Time passes so soon...
I don't know where to start...
I've done everything I could...
But seems like you don't give a damn...
This will be the last time I will tell you how much I Love You..
There's no turning back... I have to leave you..

Stuff Toy Girl

Have you ever felt like you dont own yourself? 
Like you have a multiply personalities and feels like happy but not..
I usually felt that feelings.. Like you have been under a spell of some freaking magician..
I have been good girl in the eyes of a normal people.. 
What ever mom's says and like i follow...
If mom said stay... I stayed...
If mom said you can go... I wont go...
If mom said you can't have a relationship yet... I follow...
I love my mom so much thats why I follow everything she said..
But I have some few regrets of always following her order...
I never been enjoyed living... 
I never learned to decide for myself...
I never learned to be independent...
I never learned how to make my own self happy...
I never learned how to make plans for myself...
Until now I never know myself...